To start our lives anew;
This time we’ll leap old barriers
To have a real breakthrough.
And then we’ll take one more,
Our unlimited potential
We’ll totally explore.
Everyone will be inspired!
I’m getting very tired.)
We’ll read and learn a lot,
All our goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not.
Thinking about a new year and a new start, as most of us do, I realized that this past year I have reflected on my life more than any other. My husband said he'd done the same thing and we thought maybe that was what the "Mid-life Crisis" must be about. It's easy to become depressed and desensitized with all the stress that we have to deal with on a day to day basis. I have come to realize that some people deal with stress a lot better than I do! With this new found knowledge after forty-four years of life, I'm going to make the next years of my life better! I'm not making it a resolution, but better yet, a promise to myself. Here are things I promised myself to work on. These are not necessarily in order!
- Becoming closer to God again. I haven't walked away from the Lord, but I don't spend as much time with Him as I should. We've been through a lot as a family and I've been preoccupied with that when I should have been on my knees more. Perhaps things wouldn't have been as bad!
- Becoming more healthy. Okay, I do have a bunch of junk in the trunk, I'll admit. However, my goal isn't to necessarily lose all the extra weight, but to eat more healthy and to start exercising more. I have two grandbabies that need me to feel better for them.
- Taking time for me. Something else I've realized through this reflection time is that I have abused myself over the years. I should have taken time for me to read, to shop, to take a bubble bath, to sleep, to drink a cup of hot chocolate by myself, to listen to music by myself.. to be BY MYSELF at times. If you don't do this, DO NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I HAVE! As a result, I am a nervous wreck at times! Part of this is making my dolls. I have to quit allowing other things to get in the way of my dolls. They are ME, so this is a priority. Take time for you and don't feel guilty about it because you will be a better person for those that you love.
- Learn to say NO! I heard once that southern women have issues with saying no to friends and family. It's true! I need to not be so nice. I don't need to carry guilt for saying no either! It's a lesson a lot of us need to learn!
- Spend more time with my wonderful husband. When my husband and I got married, we started out not alone, but with his eighteen month daughter. Now, we're mid forties and have our two grandchildren living with us. I wouldn't change much, but we have never had much time together because of it. I want to make sure this changes because he and I deserve it so much! I'm going to make sure he is a priority in the new year!
